I forget. I forget how much my body and mind are processing. All the time. Until it doesn’t. Continue reading
Mental break
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Tag Archives: death
Four years
It is weird. Part feels like forever ago. Part feels like yesterday. I am actually writing this the day before, as tomorrow, I just don’t know how I am going to be. Continue reading
One day at a time
I have too much on my plate right now. And all things considering, I feel like I am doing the best I can under the circumstances, but I also feel like I am dancing on the edge of breaking. Continue reading
A glimpse of my mind
This was my experience on Saturday morning, it’s a glimpse of what PTSD is like. I have said time and time again, it is ruthless and indiscriminatory in its nature. I have no idea when it will decide to show its colors. People who live with this, on some level, are always bracing for it to show up. It doesn’t always. But man, when it does, it can range from mild to a doozy.
Juggling too much – and I suck at juggling
I have said for a long time, I would like life to be a bit boring for a while, just to see how that fits on for size. Not sure when that is in the cards. Continue reading
I know death is a part of life, but….
Seriously already. Continue reading
Too many anniversaries
Last week was rough. I realize my dreaded sub-conscious was hard at work while my conscious just wanted to be normal. But alas, I am not.
Self Care
Self care is one of the most important and loving things you can do for yourself. Though I have always been “decent” at it by doing what I do for a living and making sure I walk my talk, after Jesse and Bella died, it became imperative. Continue reading
Insomnia and Jon Bon Jovi
I hate insomnia. It is this thing that keeps tagging along thinking we are friends, and we are not. Continue reading
Above and beyond – A tribute to my dad
I feel like I have been numb over the past week. I cancelled my patients on Wednesday after my dad passing on Tuesday, which gave me until yesterday before I had to go back to work. I stayed mostly away from emails and to-do’s. I had this wired tired sensation that lived within me. I was scared at times. I got called out for not being compassionate with myself (thanks honey, xo). Continue reading